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Longing to be a woman.

Longing To Be A Woman is the inspiring true story of the extraordinary man who spent two years living as the woman of his dreams. No porn, nudity, obscenity or sex. Just a sweet, refreshing story about making your dreams come true.

I was an 11-year old boy when I realized I wanted to be a woman. For more than four decades, through three failed marriages, I longed to be female and struggled to be male. Once my fourth and final wife was assured that I did not want gender reassignment surgery, she suggested I attend the 2000 Magic Castle Halloween gala as a woman. If anyone guessed, we’d just accept praise for good costuming. But everyone we encountered thought I was really a woman. So, starting Nov. 1, 2000, I lived as an ordinary middle-aged woman in Burbank, California. All the time. 24 hours a day. Every day. For two years, I was Kathryn Cleve. I went everywhere from Von’s grocery to the Farmer’s Market. I got a job as the “office girl” at a drywall company. In the bright light of day or the neon night, everyone took me for an overweight, moderately attractive woman. Joy was astonished how easily I took to being female. But, I had always known I’d be good at it because I had felt like a woman for forty years.